Idle Thoughts (part 1 – maybe)
Note: This may or may not be part 1 of a multi part post that I *may* be doing. At this time I don’t know if I would do more posts along this theme.
There are many things that I wanted to write down into words and such. Its just that I wasn’t able to make a coherent and/or cohesive post. One of the things that I’ve been doing recently is that of thinking of the last 2 years or so. Unfortunately, I’ve been stuck in a situation that I haven’t been able to get out off – major family issues. I won’t get into specifics and if I did things won’t be looking peachy keen for me.
Let me say that there are people “pulling” at from many different directions and “wanting” or “would like” me to do things their way. Regardless of what I think is a good way of doing things. For example, one person wants me, in a way, just up and move while the person that I’m staying with recovers with any kind of assistance and expects that the person that I’m helping just jump back into the swing of things with no problems of any kind. This person, from my point of view and from I could tell from the specific person, basically wants me to work 40+ hours, do all of the shopping, house cleaning, drive the person that I’m staying with to and from a health care facility (which is a total time of 45 minutes to drive and back to the house each way). Also, pay ALL of the bills that this other person has and not including my own bills.
I could go on and complain about my family maybe in detail to some degree but I won’t. There are things that could be aired out but it probably be for the best that things shouldn’t be made known to a wider group of people.
After the events with my relative health and the last 2 yrs of getting back to a stable state of health. It has basically taken this long time to work out health problems that I won’t need to concentrate much or if at all on helping a lot around the house. Because of this I haven’t been able to what I want when I want to do whatever I felt like and had to put off my education for a little while.
As it is, it looks like that I’m going to have to and need to put going back to school till the fall of 2009. Not that I mind doing this, giving the way things have been going for the last year, in regards to money and family reasons.
Though I thought of transferring to another University shortly after a couple of years at the local University. It just so happens that I wanted/needed and should re-take some math classes and maybe 1 or 2 other remedial classes before I even think of going to another University. But then I didn’t know exactly what I wanted to study in. I haven’t been taking classes for the last year and I thought I haven’t been taking classes for the 2 yrs, and its weird that I thought of that just now. I was thinking of taking some classes this coming term, but I fell like that I’m not just ready to start taking classes again. In part because of my family life and another reason is that I’m not comfortable going back to school just yet. I know that I shouldn’t wait too long to take classes again and hopefully I won’t have to.
Once things settle down with my family life and things – hopefully – get worked out between various people and sorted, it might be then when I would go back to school and with my life. After taking classes for 6 years or so, I mostly know what I want to do with my life – generally speaking. I haven’t laid out any specific plans for the rest of life but I won’t be in Alaska for a long time. But I do know thing is that I want and desire a “simpler” life, just don’t want things to get kayo tic on a consistent basis. If things get really complicated with my life and/or doing things, I just can’t stand being in this type of situations.
As I might have said in past posting that I don’t like to get into specifics on this blog, is that I don’t want to deal with any legal issues. Which is why I try to say things in the most general since here on this site.
later….
